Internship Experience of Special Needs School
You know sometimes what happens is life mends in a way for you but you get to be uncertain when you should swerve in to take a trail in that direction or whether you should continue strolling on the way you are moving in. It turns out to be that sometimes out of curiosity and dedication in for a new challenge to show the world that you can ace any adventure; you take up the challenge to lead out on this expedition where everything is self-driven and you have to get out of your cozy little world to pull up your socks to face the real world. You have to take in the responsibilities and rectify your immaturity so to be straightened up to face the real world. Is that in certain situations it’s the latter of them but actually you want to take up that way to show in the world the importance of the particular trail and you know that its best so sometimes things are not for yourself but for the ‘route to take’ unlike in other situations where meaning of oneself or selfishness defines one’s course of action either it be for quenching the thirst of curiosity or either it be for the satisfaction and thrill of taking up the new challenge. In my case it was likelihood my craving for————- had in a big purpose behind it , knowing that couldn’t have gotten a better opportunity than this I wanted to put into representation my idea that I had in me for years and it was an ideology that was a stirrup of my feelings which involuntarily gushed in and out as in a consideration of erupting itself in addition to it muffled in with a fiasco of emotions all calling in for a stand .
A voice ,a stand required out to stand out for those who were neglected , for those looming in depression, for those killed under the pressure of the gender they possess, for those discriminated, for those who had to question whether their living made a difference, for those were treated as if a mere piece of trash, and important of all the ones who have to sit in solitary and think whether God didn’t like them and whether they are the punished ones in short my heart cried in for those who had to leave on their happiness just because of them being viewed as someone ‘special’ or just because of a particular condition they had lost in the right to regain the fun that every child possesses .Just because they couldn’t do something similar of us they were labelled with different labels like ‘disabled’ ,’special’ ,’retarded’, ‘autistic’, ‘incapacitated ’etc. The labels would go on and on; my page would finish but labels won’t .This shows in how many names do we have to call to show in their difference because we can’t just call them humans right as they don’t belong to this group instead they belong to the group of aliens with such a strange figure of theirs. In general people are just called in with names feel bad when just even called with one embarrassing name that really hurts in their elevated ego but here we call them with hundreds of names ;like are they not humans as like they don’t have in feelings and they don’t feel sad, happy or angry. This shows that not by one but multiple ways we show that they are not humans instead a disjointed toy which is sort of non-living and these names we call are just for their condition and we don’t mean it like I mean who has feeling that much even attached to a toy that he puts in enough effort to at least have in a bit association with them ,we just say it .Well you all just must be saying it as in general but these names mark them different and leave in a huge impact on them as they feel. They are humans just like and are different in their own way like we are but may be that can be seen and our can’t be seen but as in guidance we become special so do they but they need grooming and then their specialty will be taken in literal as specialty and uniqueness but why only then why not when they are not taken into assistance. It is that how does the word ‘special’ just changes its meaning from person to person is so un-understandable and that too just on the basis of being different is so heart-breaking.
It is that taking it to the literal when the word is sprouted out of our mouth it is considered to be really positive; fancying up the position of the person to whom the comment is said. It is the taken as the person biggest triumph with him surpassing all the obstacles that spewed up the way crinkling it up as to stretch it to the biggest and turning it no less than a maze for us. It is an appreciation, it’s an elevation, a motivation enough to the conquer the world , an uprisal ,a satisfaction warded off by the comments of others defining in our uniqueness and appreciating it to the fullest ,a uniqueness that is viewed in a wonder which is classified to the bestest , it is a definition of our strength , our identity is renowned with a tag of special. When Einstein was warded in with a tag of ‘special’ everybody was astounded not because he was lacking in the capabilities of a normal person because it defined him the smartest ; having in the highest IQ. That gave him fame yet a voice which could be heard by millions unlike like those who yet given the title are unheard by everyone despite of their continual begging for help.Their ‘special’ title didn’t earn them respect nor gave them an opportunity to tell in the true definition of their specialty.People did see them and their urgence for help but discouraged them down.Their call for help was ignored because they were told from the beginning that they were special in a way which made them physically and mentally weak as it was not categorized by God that whether this put on a stain of incapability and disability it is that how the world has summoned in the things in respect to their ideologies is how we are treated whether like a piece of trash or whether like ‘special’ special.It is that how the world has decided in their categorization (image) is that how they are viewed. It turns out be that when the title is bestowed upon them the way of defining ‘special’ changes itself turning its direction and taking such of a swerve that a title , that an appreciation that once elevated one’s status turns it down enough that the pressure applied to magma has to force it to gush out in the form of lava and tell the world the fury that had been stored, in this case. It turns out to define it in the form of depreciation .Once a title that was used to define brilliance is used when to show disgust as to remark that it is one’s fault of existence. Not big of a weakness well I’ll say a strength in itself to me as it makes me more persistent, determined , exposed ; not like other hearers who with the title then dislocate into another world with full of unicorns and a world wrathed in fancies (I at least know how to face the real world and what is meant by practicality), self-driven and hard-worker. This gives me the motivation to lead out the best life and when you pursue for the best, you get the best, ,and let me live my life in the happiest of all as my definition of happiness is self-made not an adaptation of a communal ideology of viewing a world as God made us all different so an evolution takes place had we all been same no step towards motivation would have been led.I am proud to be the difference as for me it is a way to contribute to the world. It was God’ choice to be like this let me be the way as if I so don’t have a problem why do you and I proud of my difference and your so called ‘weakness’.
It is to why our weaknesses like not being able to write with left or able to draw good are brought into apprehension and disgust ,why does this over-flowing moralistic people then start treating the things unequally despite of the fact that this ‘disabilty’ of theirs is just due to their insufficiency of practice while the so called ‘disabled’ people are in such of a condition as per the wish of God so then the principle implanting you should be both disgusted upon and taunted upon for laziness of practicing and hardworking but based on your way of categorizing which is self-beneficiary, your disability is just because of lack of practice and doesn’t show off an irreparable fault and a difference which is yet accepted but their different is categorically referred to as ‘ disability’,’ autism-being the mental illness’ , ‘specialty’ , ‘incapacitation’ but yet one thing seems un-understandable and confuses the mind to extremist how can a selfish categorization define in one man’s weakness while other man’s laziness just because their is a easily realizable irreparability means they are disabled we cunningly hides our means we are not disable and they are so that shows we are all disabled in one way or another –either is it that we don’t accept it or if we do we then we have started accepting it communally if it is as in not accepting that we are putting ourselves into falsehood and we have started accepting each other way we are as individual differences allow other people to make us feel as whole just like a positively charge ion and a negatively charged ion are yet ready to share in their electrons and make a covalent bond which leads out to their existence , so now a time to accept them and everyone as if not then we are all disable .It is that they don’t need sympathies and empathies with being called special but hope to move forward and conquer dreams ( special in reference to the physically and mentally different children). For people with other problems whether it be gender-based or booming depression for all the moral remains common as you don’t let others decide how to be thought of you but your inner-self decides your importance and should be happy with this difference as it provides strength and for people suffering depression though the difference must not be there but you have to be headstrong to ace the world and tell the world your opinion and be assured to change not be changed.This idea of mine wanted to get a track and I wanted my ideology to be an inculcation in the minds of these children so I chose —————–; a platform where grooming was already on the track I just wanted to be the source of idea for this evolved ideology.An ideology which would make them feel humiliating and would let them define in their own space in this barbarous world which yet having disabilities is not ready to accept others. Here at —————– I got chance to explore little happinesses which ranged in from playing on a phone to getting some time to spend with.It was a box full of emotions in itself where at every point I got to realize that happiness is small things we have been running after different things just to get happiness but real satisfaction comes in from these small things which are a true source of love .They will give you enough of a happiness in comparable of the happiness you get when getting a new I phone or thing you yearned the most for.It was a platform which was already endorsing the uniquenesses of the child by making them feel confident and a platform which was in itself already rectifying their so called ‘weaknesses’to ‘strengths’. It was making them feel special but with an opposite definition. A definition which were in right of and giving them a chance to live a life yet normal.They were groomed like everyone is , they were taught like everyone is. They were told in that this so called ‘disability’ wasn’t an obstruction in them having dreams as dreams don’t see the limits and when you dream the way is shown itself.
It gave them an opportunity to stitch out their dreams with openness and dreams which too didn’t have to be encaged in the ideology of ‘mentally unsatisfied people’ which don’t have peace in their lives and don’t want others to have as well. It gave them a life which they deserved as they too are humans and all humans deserve a chance to define their own rules and principles of living.It allowed them to decide for them what they wanted to be.It gave them learning and a platform to have fun.————– in itself is a whole package of happiness as the satisfaction let through in any other emotion, sadness as when looking for their small cravings and fun and joy with all the fun to relive the childhood and get a chance to play as to make these moments memorable. Their learning let us know are moments of learning. Their smile brings upon us a smile from our hearts.It gives us the people who really love us for real and take as friends and this then gives us an ideology if they want us to be friends we will be friends as true friendship doesn’t break in with any obstruction. Their innocence makes us be their fan and helps us tell the world that differences don’t make in way for love . Doing for them then becomes a source of happiness and smile upon their faces is enough to lighten the day. Talking with them gives in us a way of relaxation and it let us make these moments lovable memories of tomorrow that is yet to come. Coloring in with them indulges us into it and helps us gain in the value of responsibility and allows us to get a chance to explore them as what they say allows us to know them from within as they represent t all through their emotions.It helps us realize how much effort is put in by our teachers and the respect for them multiplies within and especially looking at the teachers of ————– their love for children is the same as of having for own children , I would say even more and that really gives us teacher / mother( as they are sometimes more than parents for them as they are the ones who take care of them and nourishes them from within). The friendship that stirs up between us let us get friends who really care for us and their purity is reflected in their innocence showered upon us in the name of true friendship. That satisfaction when turn out to help them makes me happy as carrying out a few errands for them is so satisfying it is not that they can’t do it but the contentment that spurs in me is for what I do all of this as their love is so overpowering. Getting to play the part of a teacher is really enjoyable and interesting as supervising increases in our aptitude for things and allocates us with different attributes, you also turn out to get the best experience when interacting with children and enjoying around with them. All those activities that we monitored and teaching them what we did, interacting and understanding became a major tool. We turned out to share an unbreakable bond where when a new thing taught or demonstrated us getting into to start the copying process. It was fun ,coming here was in literal the full utilization of summer. When moved up to the senior section having in those discussions and being a unit unlike when in the junior section working in pairs, helped me learn some office techniques as to how to put in an idea , to come to a conclusion and different ideas help formulate the best ideas as also allowing us to be independent on our decisions also giving us a chance to learn the attributes of collaboration, patience, understanding ,creativity and confidence . The activities in both the departments yet were so much fun while the senior section was more fun based and collaborative as everybody indulged in the activity deciding what to do in contrary to the behavior portrayed in the junior section where individual group of internees which were designated to a class in respect to the day of their activity did the demonstration or organized in things while other learned or took a part and that was sort of more learning based but both were learning experiences in different ways one allowed us to know in the skills for organizing and doing preparations while other allowed us to indulge in as a group for collaborative work which let us indulge into it to the fullest in terms of fun. File Making was too a lot of fun and learning-based activity allowing us to show in our creativity and work in with mental satisfaction and peace . It was joyful and helping in learning to work in for the aesthetics. Now my major department the Resource Department ; a department which gave me confidence, informative and persistence ( confidence as in allowing to communicate and when explaining in the details about the fund-raising),(informative as in allowing to know different techniques for collecting),(persistence as the rejection I was getting when showing in the sponsorship forms and due to already paid Ziqaat not having funds left so getting continual refusals but it didn’t let me lose my hope).Rising Sun is a really a whole package as in of emotions ,delivering in the biggest lesson of how differences are groomed and also a platform for learning.Like the love I had is strengthened as now I want to work to collect in money through different techniques as is planned the Arts and Crafts stall for which material is ready which I will either be selling on Thursday or Friday.It would be wrong if I would say my internship program was all –time wisest decision as it changed me as a human .